Captain's Log, it seems as though the days are going by fast enough to miss out on life yet slow enough to suffer through all the pain in the bad days. I often find my self pondering on ways to get out of my life and it seems like there are no alternate versions of my reality and that i have to live and suffer. I cant help but be optimistic though, i strongly feel that i will come out on top at some point or another . . . Am i in need of help or am i to face these things on my own? Lewis out.